Did I behave in an Introvert manner?

It was only some time back that I realized I had messed up something big time. It’s not that I wasn’t entirely conscious of that but maybe I had some kind of apprehension that made me do it. So there was this girl who I think was quite comfy with me and it was the same this side. However I believe there was something that barred me from talking to her or I should say approaching her. Maybe it was that she was not as much gregarious as I was or maybe I wanted to give it a second thought before going for it. Whatever it was, I always tried to shun thinking over it.

I know you require nerves to approach a girl first up but I was never a kind of guy who had heart in his mouth whenever I am supposed to be talking to my counterparts. I would have never written this article if the other day everything would not have been made transparent between us.  It was just another normal chat that I was having with her and I had no scheme of discussing anything of that sort. It all just started with this issue over drinking.  As we were debating over how often should one drink she suddenly told something that left me dumbstruck.

 It was second semester when my seniors took me out to drink just as a token of celebration for one of the matches that I had won in table tennis. By the way I forgot to tell you I play table tennis in my college and I am pretty good at it (one of the top seeds in college). Anyways so I had gone to drink with them and as far as I remember I was completely in control. Coming back to my hostel I had dinner and later in the evening started texting her till I fell asleep. Apparently many months have passed since this happened and hence I can’t exactly recall what conversation we had that night.

I by no means told her that I was drunk that night but in all these days she became so familiar with me that she could make out about my drinking act and I was taken aback when she lately told me about this. Although I didn’t have the courage but asked if I said anything apprehensive that night. She replied that I was completely decent but the manner in which I talked to her was quite different from what I usually do. ‘I somehow liked the way you talked to me and hence I slept well that night’ she told on asking if she was hurt with this episode. But see the irony of life I don’t remember what conversation we had that night and probably will never come to know of it.

I always thought her to be a reticent person who would get embarrassed if I approached her in the presence of so called ‘people’. But not long have I realized that I was so mistaken to be thinking so. Nurturing a good friendship requires you to be as straight forward as you can and that is what I have cultured from this incident. I don’t know if I have lost anything inside these misconceptions but for certain I won’t forget that I behaved like an introvert sometime in my life. J